Feeling very depressed. Home comp on last legs. Replacement with software very expensive. So afraid of being cut off from my support team I put new one on card. Can't bring myself to open it. Scared about being able to make payments. Trying to decide if I should just take it back. Angry with self about getting so depressed about being afraid of being offline. Disappointed with myself about not being able to effectively comfort myself through distress. My Significant Other feels like he is useless because he can't make me feel better. I feel guilty about that too.