Your fear is indeed very normal. That is peoples #1 fear is of death. I am extremely afraid of death. I have worked myself up into an hysterical panic at times thinking of it. Other times, I can think "calmly" about it.

I do beleive that our fear comes from the "unknown". What happens after we die? Where do we go?. These questions can cause alot of fear and anxiety.

The fact is, no one knows........I know that losing Hammie as stirred up some valid feelings and I am sorry you are going through this.

Last year I lost my Uncle in March and lost my Mom Mom is November. I faced some feelings and fears that I had never thought of. Realizing your mortality is very scary.

I am really sorry if I wasnt much help. I just wanted to tell you that you are not alone in the way you feel.

Take care.