I hate being told smile it may never happen. I know I look sad but its hard to smile when you are depressed. The last time someone walked up to me and told me to smile I broke into tears they didn't know what to do and was so embarrassed. I was really down once and a child was crying on the bus I was on so I to took out some chewing gum I had in my bag and asked the mother if it was ok to give her a piece to chew. (its was going to be a long bus journey) the mother said yes so I offered the gum to the child and smiled at her and gave the pack to the mother. I heard the person behind me say in their language. "It the first time I see that woman smile she does look so miserable all the time. Its a pity she dont smile more often." I didn't turn round and say anything as they didnt realise that I could understand the language. I have a friend who used to walk around smiling all the time even though she was a angry as hell inside. I never understood why she did that because the smile never seemed real. If only we could just smile and it would become real and feel the smile inside. As to my friend she walks around now with a face like thunder most of the time and says whatever she thinks or feels without caring about the other persons feelings but she is still not happy but she says she does not care. I remember when I could smile but now all i seem to feel is sadness.