Roman, Please don't apologize for talking so much, I enjoy the lengthy answers and the general just holding a conversation atmosphere... If I wanted the textbook short and sweet answers there are plenty of those to find on the internet. Actually, I have read quite a few of your posts (although at the time of writing this they have not yet been approved... as I am still on probation...hehe), and I think your replies are insightful, well written and a joy to read. I think that what you have said here underlines where I was already headed in my mind. Communication I am sure is so important to her and I try my best to make sure that she knows I love her and I will never give up, even when she wants me to... When we first started dating, I had to tell her most of the time that she can't get rid of me that easy and I am just too stubborn for her to be able to run me off with her acting cold and I'm a bad b*&@h attitude... She had her walls up, they were thick and strong, but unlike most people I could see what was there inside her walls and I fell in love. It took some time convincing her of that, but I do tell her often that I love her and I am not going anywhere... I know that I have to be patient with her, especially with recent events (which I may get into later, although I don't want to over hijack my own thread...). I just haven't HAD to be that patient yet, so I am a little worried. It is like knowing that medicine tastes bad, but you haven't had to take it yet so you don't know what kind of bad or if how hard it will be for you to handle it.... but again... before I ramble too much... thank you for the input and I look forward to more in the future...