Not much patience with myself, I will try to remember this.

Decided that if we (11 people) could go someplace where the young people would have a blast, that would make me smile (and take the focus off me). So far everyplace I have thought of would cost $$$....

I guess I am wishing T wasn't so far away, kicking myself for being so clueless and dependent (and ungrateful and twisted. My my, aren't we Miss Cognitive Distortion this week).