so I have this cousin. as kids we all used to play and had fun. somewhere along the line some animosity came about. I dont even really know why. I have always been slightly jealous of her, and her family, its a favortism thing. my family was the black sheep and I more so than all the rest. I always thought she was so pretty, popular(lol this was high school times) and that she had so many things I didnt, yep a little jealous. but for her to not like me I dont know what I did or what is is about me. Recently I've been thinking about my cousin some of the things that have occured and a possibility of making amends. I feel bad that we arent close because we are family. so I wrote her an email on fb told her i saw a pic of her daughter and how lovely and big she is getting. my cousin runs a daycare and at work we just got a new educational section and I let her know in the email plus a way to get a discount if she was eligible. and told her I just wanted to say hi and requested to be her fb friend. She hasnt responded or accepted my friend request but she has been on. She is friends with my sister and brothers. I have her sister and mom as friends. Also recently I received an invite to her baby shower. I went to her sisters so Im feeling a little obligated but Im wondering why do I have to go. She doesnt like me, she didnt come to mine, she wont accept me as a friend. plus some the things she did when we were younger are still bothersom. why am I so worried about her, why do i even care. I don't think I should force myself to go to her baby shower. I don't know. I dont even know why i bother.