Thanks, googley & WePow....

This is such wonderful feedback...I soooo appreciate it.

I decided to post on the group T blog again, expressing more of my feelings and my dilemma about group T.

First, I apologized more fully to the woman that I lashed out at, telling her I felt ashamed for my behavior...I acknowledged that I was angry, but that she didn't deserve to be treated the way I treated her.

Then, I gave some feedback to the person that said that I was harsh and he was disappointed in me. I told him that I was not receptive to his feedback as it felt condescending. I was disappointed too with my behavior - but his feedback felt like an attack on my character, on my entire being.

I then shared that I was feeling rejected by the lack of feedback when I shared such very personal experiences and feelings a couple weeks ago....and that I, in turn, am feeling distant and discouraged about group. This, combined with some life struggles that I'm going through, helped me to decide not to attend group tomorrow.

I then shared that this decision scares me, because I imagine feeling even more distant and discouraged by not attending...that group has been a valuable and important part of my life, and I am upset at the idea of that diminishing.

I closed the post by saying that I am hoping for some feedback - anything but crickets....

We'll see what happens.....

Thanks everyone...

BTW - WePow, it's so true that learning the skills is what's important. I have been trying so so so hard in group to handle what's been thrown at me....because how I decide to handle it is what matters.