Hi I am totally new to this site but I have been looking for some support and answers. Here is a brief synapsis. I have been seeing my T for almost 3 years 2 to 3 times a week. I want to be more to him, special. Not in any sexual way more like a paternal figure. I feel completely disappointed and rejected. And now I have begun to hate him. I obviously have a lot of childhood issues and thought it was just transference however now I am just avoiding and am probably going to quit because I don't feel like I can handle this any more. I have talked to him about my childhood longings and they don't go away and they just humiliate me. I was in DBT training also where he was the co leader and I hated all the others in the group especially those who did individual therapy with him. When I go to my appointments and see someone else sitting in his office through the window I want to rip them out of there. I am crazy jealous. I have cancelled my appointments for the week.He is on vacation the following week and I am thinking this would be a good time to quit. I have tried to quit before but I just cry and cry like a big baby. I was bad before therapy and now I am worse off than before. Is this just therapy gone bad? Help! I feel like a terrible person.