Rita,
I am so sorry this happened to you ! I cannot imagine how horrific that must have been ! Certainly is understandable that you are suffering from this having happened to you. You really need a good therapist to talk to about this, and it may take a long time in therapy. Just being given drugs will not take care of this issue. It certainly can take the edge off, help you sleep, make you feel less stressed, but drugs alone for this type of issue just won't work. Please look for a qualified therapist, and talk to them openly and as you state - it was NOT your fault. Keep that always in your mind.

As for the above post [edited: about] benzodiazepines ...... please take it with a grain of salt. Taking your Valium right now may be crucial for you to "survive".

I truly wish you all the best ! I hope you find comfort and support on this forum.