I've had a really wonderful thing happen - I got two life insurance payouts because I can't work in my field again because of my mental illnesses, including Bipolar. It's not a million bucks, but it's enough to buy a small property in another town which I have done and I am in the period between paying the deposit and what we call in Australia Settlement Day.

However, I live alone and am on the Disability Support Pension and have no-one to help me with anything - paper work, arrangements, packing, clearing stuff out - and this purchase and move is proving to be incredibly complex. I am a very organised person so what I always do, including now, is "make hay while the sun shines" and when in relative periods of wellness I do as much of the work as I can do. When I'm unwell I back off and rest, meditate, watch TV, giggle on the Internet etc.

But buying and moving house are right at the top of the psychologists' life stress indiactors. And boy, am I feeling the strain. In the last few weeks since I looked at and then paid the depost on the property, I have gotten so tired - just trying to keep a whole lot of things related to the purchase and the move moving along that I've ended up repeatedly wigging out in Hypomania with Panic and Anxiety and then lows of depression, even though this should be one of the happiest times in my life.

I take Lamictal and in the last couple of days I've gotten a rash on my arm and I'm terrified it's Stephen Johnson's Syndrome. I don't think it is, I think an insect did a lot of tiny bites on my arm while I was asleep as I keep the back window down for the cat to get in and out and insects fly in sometimes - but any type of rash terrifies me as I always think it's SJS (for those who don't know what that isit's a rash that comes to some people who use Lamictal and it's horrific and can be fatal.). I'll let my mental health team know. But I just didn't need that to worry about right now.

I'm still resting when I can, holding off tasks to rest if I can get away with it, but it's just simply overwhelming. Any thought?