I thought you could say just about anything you wanted to on here except that you were gonna commit sucide. I say what I want. I vent and say things about bipolar and non bipolar things. You need someone now especially who may know a little of what you're going through. You need hugs. I wish I knew the answers to your problems. I guess they will come a day at a time. I better go back to work. Hugs, Owl.