I understand how you feel. Rational and emotional very rarely line up and agree with one another. And to tell you the truth, what you are feeling is totally normal, mental health issues or not, heck I feel them sometimes too. It is important to divert the negative thoughts to good thoughts. I know it is hard to do but it is important or the insecurities and worrying about small details will drive a wedge between you and him. Every time you think of a negative make yourself think of a positive like how much time you spent together, that he spent three whole days away from his family and friends just to be with you and only you... From what I can tell he has spent about 85-90% of his time with you. If he didn't care that much he would have got what he wanted and made an excuse to be with his friends and family instead. From what I can tell he does have some issues from his past with relationships and sexual performance, he isn't confident in himself and his ability, and has scars from relationships that would be hard for any man to get over. I think that if you give him your love and do what you can to build him up, show him that you enjoy his company, companionship, and the sex (this by not only showing him that you like what he does, but very kindly and slyly show him things that you personally may like more or ways to do it better), that he will come out of his shell and start to be more up front and perhaps initiate more. I will tell you this from my experience, it is very important to know that you are pleasing your woman. Although it is hard to accept help or take advice from her in that department, once you see how you are pleasing her and she is enjoying it, it doesn't matter any more, it was more than worth it...