Rita,

I'm so sorry for what happened to you. I feel your pain as I read this.

I agree with Monty in the fact that you need more help than you're getting right now. When we go through long lasting, continual, horrible things as a child, they tend to come out later in life when the life is more "settled", then something might trigger it.

Meds can certainly help with the symptoms. However, I feel you really need to get with a good therapist who specializes in childhood trauma. It will be one of the hardest, but most healing, things that you can do.

You didn't ask for what happened to you. You were an innocent and had no control. However, you have control now and deserve so much more than the pain and confusion that you're feeling now.

I so wish some peace for you.

KD