((((((((((((((NICO))))))))))))))) I think that goes hand and hand with depression/anxiety and the low self-esteem that it can cause.

I had to feel more comfortable in my own skin before I could say that it didn't matter to me what others thought. Still, when I'm particularly stressed or depressed, I revert back to old patterns. This can change, though, with a good "internal dialogue".

I wish you well.

KD