Invisigirl, I agree. I want them to not exist. ha...well I'm being a hypocrite because right now with moving to a new place I am kind of wanting one to take over for awhile. I'm petrified. In a normal state of being though, I want nothing to do with them. I also question if I made it all up, but that's impossible. I've been dissociative since birth ( long story ). being dissociative from birth made it ripe for the DID to develop particularly under the abusive situation I lived in. I just never knew what was going on until recently.

The daydream that created the one alter...I had no control over the dream...but it was a daydream. I got completely lost in it. I remember that part. It happened several times. Then one day I was just sitting there and became her. Juxtaposed, but not to the point I had any control. Could only watch from the background.