well I sat here and made a list of the good things that came from T today. I needed to try and make myself believe that I didn't waste time and money:
1) I was able to admit some thoughts to him, just by shaking my head.
2) He always brings me back to my "happy place" memory before I leave, and that's a nice thought to leave with.
3) He made me laugh a few times.
4) He doesn't judge me for not talking, he doesn't force me to talk.
5) It's only been about 7 weeks, and he already reads me well.
6) I feel safer with him then I did with my old T.