rita, i agree with everyone about your finding a good therapist to talk to. i am so sorry for what has happened to you. it has have been horrific and of course, you're going to have it on your mind all the time. talking about it will really help you. you're welcome to PM me.

as for Valium, etc. i've been prescribed Valium before, for stress that caused a sleep disorder and i am now taking a small dose of Xanax every day. don't worry about that. you need the med to help you cope right now. just concentrate on getting yourself some help.