I too suffer from depressive isolation and can totally relate! I isolate because I don't think anyone can understand the pain and agony of my depression so I think they'll judge me or think that I'm weak and why don't I just "snap out of it, what do I have to be depressed about". I sometimes also feel like I'd rather be dead because i feel so worthless and alone but never actually think suicidal thoughts. The feeling of being alone is so debilitating and sad. You make sense to me snicoll. Please get professional help if you don't have it already. I am currently seeing a psychiatrist and a psychologist and am hoping for positive results. Hang in there!