((((trinity))))

Thank you for posting. I am sorry you are going through such a hard time. I do understand those feelings of those within that do not understand and sometimes they cry for mommy. Please comfort them as best you can and allow them to feel what they are feeling. Like someone said surround yourself with all the comfort you can and wrap yourself in a blanket if that will create a safety feeling.

That pain that you speak of is so hard and it does hurt. For us that raw open hurt feels like someone is pouring acid into a raw open place and it hurts. I am really sorry you are feeling that way. We have been feeling that too and trying to find a way to work through that pain.

The work you are doing will take time. Please allow yourself that time that you need. Take it one minute at a time, even one second at a time if you need too. You would not be working on this if you were not ready to do this. And as hard as it is remember to breath and to take those breaks as you can.

It is hard for those within that do not understand and never had the chance to say goodbye and have closure. Just allow yourself to feel what you have to feel and know that you will make it through. I know it is so so hard and hurts.

So many of us never learned coping skills as it was all we could do to survive. Learning to take care of you and be the mother to yourself you need and needed will take time. It is something we are trying to learn too. It is not easy especially when we never had a mother to show us how to be a mother at all.

This process will take as long as it takes and there is no time limit. Pace yourself and try not to expect too much at one time, but only what you can do. Each one needs to do their work surrounding this and you all deserve that time. It did not take a day to get here and it will take time to work through this. You deserve to give yourself that time.

We do get the time of year fears too. Do your self care and keep posting and reaching out as you can. We do care and are here for you. Sending gentle hugs and loving thoughts. Always.

dps