((((((((((wolfsong)))))))))

If you did not remember writing this, you may need to talk with a T about being DID.
This reminded me of when I was doing my trauma healing and my younger parts came out and sent emails to my T. I would not remember doing that but T sent them back to me and I was shocked.

The mind fights very hard to keep us safe from the evil we find ourselves living in day after day. It is a very sad thing for that type of evil to exist. I am so sorry that you are in so much pain on the inside. Honor that part of you and allow it to have a voice.