Yoda you are partially correct. I have been going to family events at her mother home to try but if she know I'm going to be there she doesn't go. I've been sending christmas cards. I gave up for awhile. Recently I sent the email I wrote of up above and received no response. Shortly after the baby shower invite came and I'm going back and forth is this the chance to help it truly move forwar or is it going to be one more time I feel that I'm being disregarded. Last time she saw me was at the fair with her husband and father. Her husband and my uncle talked to me but she said nothing. This was one summer ago. She also refused to go to the family reunion and she was in town. I don't know. I keep thinking one more try. One more try. When do you stop trying? How many times can one handle the rejection of someone you used to be so close to. And I'm sure she has her reasons too. I'm not sure what I did and won't know unless she told me. Feeling conflicted yes. I don't know how not to at this point. I am definitely going back and forth. Can even tell from my responses. I have an idea in my head but I would need a ride to go. That may be the only way to get me there. I need to settle one way or the other so I can rsvp. Its eating away at me making me very nervous.