First of all, I agree with the people who have said that T's who are aware of their issues, and don't allow these issues to bleed into their work, can be effective T's even if their issues are partially unresolved. At my job, I work with a psychologist who is a fantastic therapist, who clearly still meets criteria for an anxiety disorder. He's scared of doctors, and funerals, and germs, and vomit, and blood, and lots of different things, and he does everything he can to avoid the things he's scared of. But he admits to his issues, laughs it off, does his best, and never lets it affect his work. He is the most empathic and caring T, and he is a razor-sharp clinician. He wouldn't tell a client that he has anxiety unless it would be helpful to them.
My T has very bad social anxiety sometimes - when she's anxious, she blushes terribly and gets very blotchy, and she considers it very embarrassing. She admitted it to me because I tend to feel ashamed of having any issues at all, and I tend to pathologize my own behavior even when it's kind of normal. I was a client who needed an imperfect T, so my T chose to reveal her imperfections.
When I am a T, I will be the same way. I am working HARD to resolve my issues, but I'll never erase a lifetime of trauma. I'll always have some anxiety, at the very least, I'm sure. And I think I'm okay with that. But I have no need to share this information with people who would not benefit from hearing it. I figure, I will be alright as a T, even if I have some lingering issues, if:
- I always seek help when things come up in my daily life.
- I continue to seek self-awareness and admit to myself if I am struggling.
- I don't allow my issues to color my work. If I have blind spots, I admit them to myself and move forward.
- I seek supervision if I am unsure if my own problems are affecting the work I do.
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He who trims himself to suit everyone will soon whittle himself away.
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