Sabby and dark purple, thank you. dark purple...I used to float to the ceiling as well. First time I remember it happening it scared me half to death LOL My shrink thinks that is Temporal Lobe Epilepsy but they need to do the testing on me to verify. What you said about your memory makes a lot of sense. It's that way for me too with most of it. I had an identic memory as a child though and repetition. My mind plays things back over and over...which is perhaps why I remember glimpses of things that others may not. I can remember themes of abuse while not remembering the abuse itself in some cases. There is evidently some things I have no memory of entirely so someday when I can get back to a good specialist ( I am moving and leaving my current shrink ), I will have to deal with al that.

It seems as if most are still misinterpreting what I meant. I simply remember the beginning of the self hypnosis that created the alter. I did not set out to create an alter, i simply remember the development of a couple of them. I had no control over over any of it. Just as you are co conscious with some of your alters, I was co conscious of the birth of two of mine.

My shrink who is the head of psychiarty at a university does not see this as being false alters. i just remember the the process in part. It's foggy but the memory is there none the less.

I think if we could find others who have glimmers of the same memory it could help doctors to better understand the process and perhaps help children ( if they are lucky enough to be found as children) to be able to avert the process. The younger you are, the less ingrained the pathways. I think any little thing we can come up with to help understand this disorder is valid, hence my uncomfy questions. If there is a way we can help so others might not have to go through what we have in dealing with this disorder, then we have an obligation to do so.