eileen i typed this up to maybe give to my T if i suddenly get brave thought you might like it

The conversation

the question

T-so on a scale from1-10 how are you doing?1 being the worst 10 being the best.

the thoughts

Granite-What? How am i doing? I have no idea, How am i supose to be doing?Why dont i know? I should know this.what should i say?i know ok i'm fine. Ya thats believeable.God i have no idea whats ok to say. I cant answer this. God i'm forever so messed up.I'm ok just breathe.so what just dont answer.I'm just so pathetic.She has just got to totally hate me.I so just want to get out of here.This isnt good and i have no idea why i am even here.just breathe.this is crazy why i'm i so terrified?Just open my mouth.Forgrt that ****.what would she think about all this?I dont really even want to know.If she is angry i cant stop it.i can leave.It's ok.The door isn't locked.I dont think.I cant do this.I just want to say i'm sorry.she would ask why.stupid.Crap what was the question anyway? whatever
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the question again

T- granite,how are you doing

The answer

Granite-I'm fine