but moving forward...is like forgetting isnt it?..moving past ?..its been 12 yrs. and I feel like I replaced her with my son who was born a year later just 4 days short of her date...I love my son and dont look at him any different..but when his birthday comes up I think..she would be going on another year..what would she be like what would she be doing...is that normal ...I am sorry for your lose as well...and your daughters....I understand what your saying thou..man I dont even know what to say anymore..I feel at a loss..I have talked so much but it never seems to go anywhere but in circles..sighs...maybe that just how its going to be for me round and round like a mery-go-round..