(((((((((Tree)))))))))

It is amazing that you are seeing your own patterns and able to stop yourself from spiraling out. That is so awesome.

I do think it is easier to push away when doing trauma work and not want to be close to Ts. And then we project our desires onto them. So it is them wanting to push us away. I know the first time I talked about trauma related stuff I totally created a whole big rupture and she said it was totally normal and she completely understood. I wish I could see when it was happening so I could stop it, or at least slow it down.