You are not totally responsible for what happens in an outbreak, that is why you take medication and get treatment and hospitalisation.

You have done everything in your power (which is your responsibility) to ensure you are as ok as possible at all times. You have proof on here of the times you were begging for help in stopping things and making it go away.

In effect you have hundreds of witnesses here who can attest to your attempts to be ok. Take this further and don't allow the stigma of mental illness to ruin your life. These people need educating and they need anti-redneck collars to show them that YOU are the one who suffers and is afraid, not them.

Good luck with it pditty and remember we are all here for you at any time, and we will not withdraw our support from you at all,

Rhiannon