I hate it too.It has ruined my life. I feel like I have wasted the last 15 years of my life. I know this isnt true, but I have struggled and tried and struggled and nothing seems to work. I lost my career and now am on SSD. I graduated very high in my class for my masters and now I am unable to do anything, but try to control my thoughts. I am very, very tired of it all. It stinks.