Those are all great suggestions mysecret. The protein powder I'm using is Twin Labs' Gainer's Fuel Pro.

I know I need to stop focusing on the numbers and start focusing on my health. I don't want to wind up in a hospital with a feeding tube. I still eat. I like food. I'm just barely hungry. T suggested medicinal marijuana. Ha! I said so long as I don't have to smoke it. I'd like it in capsule form...or a liquid with a dropper.

I'm seeing someone with a lot of experience with eating disorders next week. T referred me to her. I just want to make a plan to get my weight back up and stabilize it there around 115. (This sounds horrible to me in my current mindset, but I know it's what I must do for my health).

Thanks again for all the info.