Rita, I'm so sorry that such horrible things happened to you! You know it's not your fault but I'm sure it's difficult to internalize that fact. Still, it wasn't your fault! With some good, professional help of a therapist, you'll eventually heal. There's absolutely NOTHING wrong with taking Valium or whatever med helps you get through the very difficult times. Don't pay attention to some here that have NO CLUE what you went through and what you are STILL going through.

Be kind to yourself, Rita, and stay away from those that aren't kind to you.

We're here to listen and support you the best we can. Hang in there, ok?