Could post this anywhere. I am doing a mid-life crisis thing where my kids are testing the boundaries and I am left baffled everytime. I stayed home from work today and played June Cleaver. I think that I feel torn because part of the issue with my kids is that they want to be fed and cared for. So do I.

I feel like it would be easier to just shut up and carry on like I always have. I wonder about my lack of energy to post to people here much. I am taking a lot of meds for depression as well as back. I felt whole while I was home alone today with sick daughter. Got a lot done in very little time.

I don't know the point here. Just that I am floundering. I am not enjoying that feeling either.

I need to just be a loving parent who takes care of everyones needs and I will get less grief. I am tired but it is easier.

This makes no sense but it is how it feels inside.