Why is it that people who hurt us think that saying sorry will heal everything? I forgive people when they hurt me but forgiving them doesn't remove the fear and distrust that I feel. I just can't forget and even if they have changed, I am still scared of them. Things trigger the fear and bring back the memories. If I hear a person yelling at someone else it makes me freak. I have someone who really did hurt me alot. This person can't understand why I cannot talk to them like I talk to everyone else. They want to know and can't understand why I avoid them and why am I so scared of them. This person told me to get over it and just act like a normal person. I just can't. I try to put aside the feelings, but I cannot even barely look into this persons eyes. I do not think it's out of unforgiveness, because I choose to forgive people. It never does me any good to hold grudges.
I'm confused. When people hurt me I just want to completely cut them out of my life. I never ever want to see them again and I'm frustrated because I cannot make these feelings go away. I have tried to act NORMAL. I can't!!!!!