I hate it when people yell. Somehow it tells me deep inside that I am very unsafe and I want to run away. Other people can handle yelling and it doesn't bother them.
Wow i can't believe that you have never had a person apoligize to you. That's just crazy!! I'm in the opposite boat, where the people say sorry over and over and over but they continue to do the bad things over and over. So the sorry just loses it's meaning. I cannot trust them. I hope that you find some really kind and loving friends who you will hear that word sorry from one day. I'm sad and sorry that people have hurt you and that you have never had an apology. But you're right about forgiving. It's good to be able to forgive. I heard this really cool quote about forgiving, it said...
"Unforgiveness is like drinking deadly poison and expecting it to kill your enemy."
I have learnt that forgiving people is a choice I have to make and sometimes I will still feel terrible pain but that doesn't mean that I haven't forgiven the person.