Thank you everyone for your support it means so much to hear from all of you, i am deeply touched. I got medicare cards in the mail and they said i am enrolled already and it should be active in November I have to pay $110 out of my disability though and I have to subscribe to a prescription plan to get meds, i don't know if that costs more money but thats where things are right now. I'm still struggling with the what to tell people dilemma. I'm not going to tell anyone anything but then i have to deal with why aren't you working, and are you even looking questions. People always talk about their jobs and usually they ask about yours. Especially my family and friends (the few I have left). I have been avoiding people just so I won't have to talk about it which doesn't help my depression because i'm isolating myself. I don't know what to do about the situation, i don't really like lying to people. Recently I told someone I was out of work and looking. I'm afraid someone is going to offer to help me find a job where they work or something. What would I say then? Anyway thanks for all your kind words I really really appreciate the support. Anjelmarie