I went off my Lithium and didn't tell my NP. I was really really sick a few weeks ago and could not take Lithium due to vomiting. I never started it again. My head is so much clearer, I can actually remember to pay bills, do laundry, etc. My thyroid gland is back to normal size and I can swallow correctly without choking. I have more energy to play with my daughter. I don't get GI problems anymore. My extreme tremor is mostly gone. But I am back to fidgeting all the time, being really anxious/high strung, and I feel the depression oozing out all over. I am having a horrible time sleeping. I also am kind of labile in mood when things go wrong.

I had thought I was improving because of therapy and learning new ways to think and behave but now I know I am just a freak who needs to be drugged every day of her life.

I don't know why my NP wastes her time on doing therapy with me if all I need is to take drugs that make me so slow that I can't do anything but work and eat. What is so frustrating is that Lithium did ok at first but even at the exact same blood level my side effects are ruining my life 18 months later.

I am regretting ever getting treatment in the first place.