dear Pup,, learn Skills,, help Self,, this has been the way out for me. Go to DBT, CBT, Self-Hypnosis, Anxiety Managment, Knitting ,, fer heaven's sake,,, any skill~! learn something already, and you will have something you didn't have before~! the more you practice a new skill ,, the better you become at it,,, just repeating oneself is not a skill,,, give it up for a lost cause... try meditating,, or fishing, or golfing, volunteer,,,, i bet you have heard all this 84 times,, but i hope you start swimming for shore soon,,, Gus