It's been a really long time and I'm still only about half-way through my block at another online support forum.

I learned my lesson. I'm getting upset over being blocked again. I just don't know what to do. I just don't know how to cope. I've been replying to almost every single thread on the social board at the other forum and saving my replies for when my block is over.

That is the only way I can cope with being blocked right now. I've also been e-mailing the administrator there again. I just don't cope well. I've been obsessed with coming here and replying there since my block. I need to busy myself with posting or else I will lose it.

I don't cope well. I'm tired of being blocked. I'm sad and tired. I think I'm going to have to drop many classes this semester. I haven't been studying since my block. My hamster died the day before a midterm and I was too upset to write it. I'm not going to graduate this school year.

I'm tired all the time. I think it may be the Risperdal. I can't concentrate on things. I couldn't even concentrate on a movie yesterday. I feel like I'm disconnected from the real world. When I walk, I feel like my body and mind are separated. Things don't feel real to me. I don't know if this is because of the 0.75 mg Risperdal or not.

On a positive note, I'm not thinking of suicide anymore, but I'm feeling a bit out of touch with things.

Can someone attempt to make me feel better?