((((((((((((zoo)))))))))))))

I just told two people IRL about the same things.

In some ways, I think it is a sign of healing. T says that part of healing is being able to integrate what happened into my life. To not have to push it away, to not have it constantly showing up in flashes in my mind, but to just have it be part of my story. It is part of your story. Your friend asked, you told her.

I know how scary it is to tell. I KNOW, believe me. It's such a vulnerable feeling. But it is what it is, and she asked, and you told. I think that if she didn't want to hear, she wouldn't have asked.

I wonder if it will feel better the next time you see her? Kind of like when we tell T something new and then worry until we see T again about whether things will be different now?

If you regret telling her, next time someone asks, you can say "childhood stuff" or whatever. That's my general fallback answer.

You are okay. Look at the amazing things you are doing...going to school, making friends, allowing yourself to be vulnerable. You are healing