Amazonmom, it's not always all so clear what it is that is causing the changes. Sometimes it's a combination of stugff, but all the pieces need to be in place for life to work. Don't beat your slef up for going off the meds. chalk it up as a learning experience and try to remember what you found out. It's an important lesson and no one seems to have gotten hurt. HUGGGGGGGGSSSSSSSSSS from someone who's been there.