Hello,
Some recommended resources and hotlines include:
http://www.suicidepreventionlifeline.org/
http://www.suicide.org/
http://www.hopeline.com/
http://www.suicideforum.com/
http://www.metanoia.org/suicide/index.html
Have you told your psychiatrist the medications are not working?
When everything is at an end, you make a new beginning. You talk about it. You may talk to us or to someone at a hotline. You make sure those treating you understand you need help.
What is going on that makes you feel so bad?