Hello everyone,
Shortly after I signed up on this forum I went away and had no internet but I'm back now..Anyway, as always, I struggle with sticking to a schedule and a while ago I found an online tracker of moods and eating times, bedtime etc, to motivate me to be disciplined, but as I had no internet and I kept everything in a notebook I didn't really stick to it and now I just put all the data in and it shows only a 20% success in keeping the schedule which made me feel worse! Because I know being unruly makes my mood swings worse...and then guilt is added in the mix because I feel responsible for getting worse and it's a vicious cycle.

Especially if other people are involved, I can't be assertive enough to do what I know I should do for myself (for example last night a friend was over and just wouldn't go home and it was way past my bedtime but couldn't say anything even though I was getting in a vile mood and knew the next day would effectively be ruined...)