That's exactly how I feel. Why should I endanger myself again? I want to just ignore what happened and act normal around this person, but it's impossible. If they are talking in a group of people I have to leave the group so that i don't have to communicate. It's so hard.
I just want to forget the things that happened and start over in life. But it's like there's a connection that I just can't break. Probably because we were so close. I know what he is thinking when certain things happen. I can read his fellings and I just know him so well. I just want to be free from his power. Don't know if that makes any sense. It's like he is not directly in my life anymore but he still runs my life alot of the time. I avoid situations and people because of what has happened. Will this connected feeling ever go away?