Thanks Grkgjohn...

I know, they do say illness tests your friendships... she stuck by me through all my crap with my depression which was my worst and lowest point I have ever been to. She has been there for me when I have had suicidal thoughts, wanted to kill myself etc... I am just sooo disappointed that its happened now.

Its like I lost a part of me as we were soooo close

Crying over it is making me more ill and I don't think I will ever be able to get over it a the moment