Hey there. Yup, you are about half way through. And I reckon you have been doing really well. Really. Hang in there.

I think maybe...

It would be more profitable to focus your attention here rather than there?

I mean that in the sense that... There are caring people here too. Sometimes it can be hard... I know I can be like that with therapists sometimes. I am seeing a current one... And still pining for a past one... It can make things very hard sometimes.

The sense of disconnection...
I'm wondering whether without that resperidal if you would be doing much worse than you are?
Becuase you know...
Some pretty hard things have been happening for you.
I know that blocks can hurt a whole heap :-(
And when the boards become such a part of your life then the time the block lasts can be hard too :-(
Because it is a radical change in our life.
And Hammie.
(((Hammie)))
(((Deneb)))
Thats gotta be really hard hon.
And school... Things have been getting pretty hard there too, huh? That was round about the time when you got blocked on the other board too... After missing one of your midterms.

So... Stuff is going on. I know I get pretty stressed out when stuff like that is happening too.

Actually... I've been stressing out rather a lot lately myself. My thesis is due in one month so I really need to get into taht and i have been procrastinating rather... And I've been getting applications off... And that brings back the trauma of the last application round :-( And the 'what if...'s' and the health insurance saga... And I got terminated from treatment completely...

Anyways... My point is just that I've been losing it.
Really.
Go check out psychology if you don't believe me.
But really...
You don't need to check.
Sigh.

The point is we can do it.
We are going to do it.
We are going to get there.

If you need to pull out of a couple classes, thats okay.
They will be there for you next year.
But you will get there.

Maybe try and do a little bit of study or something tomorrow?

You can tell me something interesting from your biology text book

(Hopefully you will be allowed to post it lol ;-)

Those posts you sent me seemed fine.
mostly your posts are just wonderful, you know.
Its just when you get too distressed
or too irreverant... or something...

anyway...
better go to bed now...
and write something tomorrow...

sleep well
i'm sorry things are hard
you will get through.

ps i'm sure you don't need me to tell you to stop emailing dr-bob those kinds of emails that get sent sometimes when you aren't in such a good place.

you know he never responds to those anyway - right?