oh i am one deeply humbled old lady tonight, reading and rereading your wonderful posts of support. this place is truly awesome and a blessing i never though would come into this tired life.

dps writes:

Each day we live and reach we take back another piece that was never theirs to take in the first place. Each day we live we become stronger than the day before. We are suvivers walking to healing and though it is so hard, we will live through the memories as they cannot kill us for we already lived through the event.

i need to put this on my wall! the pain comes from the memories of course. and the actual events are over now. we must move on, they can never take anything else away. and as we become strong, the imagined hold that may linger will eventually become a whisper on the wind, and then gone.

Yes, you can be little and give to yourself that comfort and understanding you never had then. Keep reaching out and know that you are not alone. Know that you are being heard and that you are cared for and loved. Thank you for being brave to write and let out what you need to. It is important how you feel and you are not alone.

i vow never to stop reaching out for answers. some days will be worse or better than others. but knowing people who "know" is working miracles, and being able to let out what i need to is a blessed miracle and the relief is immense.

and yes, i know that feeling of writing "from above" i think my hand is guided at times by help from somewhere to be able to express what i need to say. it's a protection i value and don't take lightly, and am sad when it goes away.

thank you all, you are true blessings to this broken soul who is trying to put the pieces back together.