aaah {{{{{{{{ Googley~!}}}}}}}}} life sucks, and then ya don't die~~~ grieving isn't a one, two , three step program, more's the bummer,, i know i grieved for 3 yrs when i realized the extent to which my body had betrayed me. that is what it feels like, right ? a betrayal by the only place you can't escape? i'm glad you posted on this, you did a lot of people some good,, and some people a lot of good~! you are always so succinct, so poignant, so moving in your posts. i'm glad to share the site with you. Gus