Last night at 4am we heard a loud smash and my hubby along with me 2 doggies jumped up and our front door had been forced open. I came downstairs trying to understand it as 4am its not something you can get your head around and my mind begun telling me that this is going to send me into one 0f those scary places, but I checked with my gut and it was still there, it wasn't going up and down, but still I was worried that I wasn't go to deal with whatever it was that had happened, I jumped back to the yr as a child when our home was wrongly targeted in a revenge attack, but still my stomach wasn't going there and I sat and thought about it and thought, but if someone wanted to attack me or my family surely they'd charge in anyways, they'd be tooled up prepared, then I thought about one of my teenage kids having upset anyone? but then I thought, no teenagers use bricks and like to be heard lauging as they run off and 4am is prime burgalary time. All this went on a very short time and I realised, I am not as fragile as I use to be, though its a strange and unplesant experience, it wasn't sending me into a spiral of despair and fear. I dealt with it, though me and hubby has to sit from there on in until a locksmith came out as door wouldnt shut and the police this time were very helpful, unlike my childhood experience of them, so thank you T for helping me internalise your inner strenght, I think with this we can cope with anything in life, something I'd never managed before. Mind you wiht my 2 dogs rushing down the stairs barking I think it will be a long time before anyone thinks of breaking in to my home again lol, dogs got a big bone each and the mystery of how "normal" folk cope with strive has been revealed to me! good one!