Patricia,
All I can say is I remmber those moments, the moments of no control and pure Isolation. not carring of what was going on around me.the feeling of losing my inner being, such a scarey place in time. trying to fight away the pure Love that stood next to me day in and day out. try not too look back and don't listen too yourself. look at everything your accomplishing, your degrees, your children your love. most people can't even get out of bed. I know that it is such a tough battle to fight. but, you shall get threw this. your sanity will be restored when you find peace within yourself. you will be YOU once again....I hope everything is well, and wish you nothing but LOVE...
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~Duchess~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

ABOUT THE NINTH HOUR JESUS CRIED OUT IN A LOAD VOICE, "ELOI,ELOI, LAMA SABACHTHANI?"~WHICH MEANS~"MY GOD, MY GOD,WHY HAVE YOU FORSAKEN ME?"
~MATTHEW27:46.
MY GOD,MY GOD WHY HAVE YOU FORSAKEN ME?WHY ARE YOU SO FAR FROM SAVING ME,SO FAR FROM THE WORDS OF MY GROANING?~ PSALM 22:1