hey thanks for the replies,
inabox, what you said did make me think, i would like to get into some kinda ADD group, and i know i should be changing my diet XD
but as for finding something I'm good at, i know I'm good at drawing and cooking, which i do practice alot, and I'm trying to get into cooking school right now,
but now that i think about it, there really isn't anyone i can think of in my family besides my mom that could see me crying without making me feel stupid for doing so, and even when my mom ever saw me crying, i just couldn't explain what was wrong,
and now that I'm 18, I've gone threw so much of that, that even if i tried letting my mother comfort me, it would just feel way to awkward,

and as for you travis, besides the getting beaten up, smoking anything, drinking anything alcoholic, or having financial problems, that's exactly how i feel about everything and what happens to me,
like that last thing you said there where you're mind just drifts off while you're talking to someone and you nod your head like you're still listening,

but i don't think depression medicine is the answer for you, depression medicine is for people who are depressed when they have absolutely no reason to be depressed, you are actually depressed for a reason, and i think if you got the right person to help you, and some good friends to help and encourage you, then you'd be feeling alot better,

well something else that happens to me alot is, i go and say something out of nowhere, I'm asked what i said, and then i realize what i said didn't make sense, so i say never mind, and they get mad at me x,x

i guess the fact that i can't talk or explain things like everyone else can does get me down alot,
and i think joining some kinda ADD group will help me,
but it might have to be an online group, because right now i have no means of transportation to get anywhere,

I'll do what i can though, thanks again for replying both of you :3