Oh don't worry about me. I'm on a great meds combo and hardly ever think about suicide any more...and even when I do, I have no intention to act on it because I know it would hurt the people who love me too much. I've had a partner for the past 6 years who has helped me through all my trials and says I'm easier to get along with than all of his previous relationships. We totally respect each other. If I ever get super down again, I know to go to the hospital because I have too much to live for.

I really feel great on my current meds and don't forsee a future plunge into depression. Not having a gun just makes me feel extra safe. That and always being around my guy. He's the best. Sorry if my post sounded scary, it wasn't meant to be.